I feel bad for the girls who are dumb enough to think their boyfriends are loyal.
I can say this because I was one of those girls. I was different though. I already knew my boyfriend wasn’t loyal, but I was too stupid and comfortable to end things. It’s a hard task to give up your first love because you cannot immediately be friends. Some people will never become friends. It’s been almost 4 years since I was that dumb girl and I can honestly say that we are friends. The kid drives me fucking insane, but sometimes it’s hard to fully give up the person who knows you best in this world.
Enough about my stupid 19 year old self. I often think about the girls who are with guys who are cheaters. There are two situations you may find these girls in. One- the girl knows, chooses to ignore it and stay with the guy. I find these girls pathetic. Once a cheater, ALWAYS a cheater ladies. Two- the girl just doesn’t know what a fucktard her boyfriend is. I feel bad for them. These types of girls I feel for because I am causing a situation like this. I hate it, but I can’t stop. The cheating isn’t physical, but if we were close enough I truly believe it will be. I will admit that he started this “sexting” but I have done nothing to stop it. Instead, I believe I am egging him on. You may be thinking “why would you do this to another girl, when clearly you’ve been through it yourself?” This is true, but he’s my exboyfriend and in this crazy head of mine I keep thinking -I had him first. I need to stop this before it gets too out of hand. It only happens drunkenly, but that doesn’t make it right. It also doesn’t help that I don’t like her. I’ve never been fond of her. I’m a fuck up and a homewrecker.